Beautifully written Colin. You are a good writer and I'd like to read many more of your thoughts, experiences or opinions. I'm glad you picked up your quill.
Thank you for sharing this and for helping me accept myself with my vices and tendencies and to understand that I am not alone in this. You seem to have had a rough life but by sharing this you've helped me and many others who'd read your story, and who are either in the early stages or somewhere where you are.